Dec 7, 2016

Lady Gaga Covers New Issue of Vanity Fair Italy

Lady Gaga Covers New Issue of Vanity Fair Italy

Lady Gaga graces the cover of the December issue of Vanity Fair Italy for the first time. The Italian-American songwritter was interviewed about her Italian roots, the loss of her aunt Joanne, her father Joe, her depression and the recently PSTD illness, Taylor Kinney and more. Read the full interview and the untagged photos!


    



 There's a lot about you and your family in this album,  your  Italian  roots are entirely showing up.

 I feel deeply Italian: my father’s family, Joseph Giuseppe  Germanotta,  arrived in NYC from Palermo through Ellis  Island; his mother Angelina is  from Santa Lucia Del Mela  (province of Messina). My grandmother is from  Venice  instead. This album is a tribute to Joanne Stefani Germanotta,  my  father’s sister: she died at the age of 19 in America and  this tragedy  afflicted my family for generations.

 Why did you decide to talk about this now?

 It wasn't a choice, but a necessity. Me and my sister Natali  feel the sorrow for the loss, but we were not able to  understand it for years. Sometimes I ask myself if I really  know my dad, because losing a member of your family changes you completely. I grew up seeing the feelings on my parents’ and relatives’ faces who, at every festivity were reuniting around a table just like good Italians, were missing her.

Your father used to talk about this loss openly?

No, my grandmother Angelina told me about it and my mother as well. When I asked her: “Mom, why is dad crying? Mom, why does dad drink so much? Mom, why is dad always so angry? Mom, why is dad missing the Mass today?,” she used to reply: “Dad has been going through a hard time since he lost his sister at a very young age. Pray for him because he feels this loss so deeply that you can’t understand”.

Today my father comes to me to pray, he holds my hand, and he says to me that we have to talk to God and be grateful. Today my father doesn’t drink anymore, he stopped 2 years ago. I saw his progress to heal and I wanted this to be the aim of the album: I want to tell the entire world about this experience of loss and hurt lived by my family to help those who are in the same situation to make it through. To reach this goal I had to communicate more humanly: they couldn’t be lyrics by Lady Gaga, they had to be lyrics by Joanne, which is also my second name.

I read that your father is overprotective towards you and your sister. Do you think this has anything to do with his loss?

Definitely. He was constantly afraid that it could happen again, such a tragedy makes you feel lost. For years I thought that my dad was angry because of me; when we’re kids we can feel our parents emotions, but sometimes this is painful, because at that age you’re living the purest love and you should just think about being a kid. 

While you grow up you’re more aware and ready to say: “Dad, there is another way, let go of all the ghosts, I’m here and you can love me, your trauma is gone, you don’t have live it everyday”. This is Joanne’s theme: I learned to forgive and to feel compassion not only for my father but also for all those who were not able to make it through the loss. I’d like my message to give you the strength to go through every kind of obstacle. I mixed folk, pop and country, a genre which is very much appreciated in the United States, with the aim to reach to everybody”.

Two months ago you declared that you suffered from depression. 

5 years ago I was under pressure because of work. In that period I separated from my manager Troy Carter. A long path to healing followed and I’m still not done with it, my body did not entirely heal from all the hard work and the stress of all those concerts. I feel condemned to live with this chronic pain but I don’t want compassion: there are a lot of people with the same problem, we are strong and fight everyday to do our best. 

Recently, I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder, a mental illness which is very hard to explain in an interview. It can be caused by an image, some words or a story that reminds me of all the hard work I did in the past and those simply make me panic. I live the trauma as if today I am in the same position as 5 years ago but it’s not like that, today I’m here and I have a fantastic team that takes care of my body, of my mental illness, of my dignity as a woman who is free to decide when to use my body. Today I should be fine but this mental illness sometimes doesn’t let me live the reality, it scares you.

 What was scaring you?

  During the Born This Way Ball Tour I was very scared but I  didn’t know why. I somehow discovered that it had  something to do with my brain, but it took me 5 years and  many psychiatrists to understand it. Today I’m here but I  fight everyday. With Joanne I want people to know that I’m  human, and no better than them, but also not less. People  look up to me, this is why I decided to talk about my  problems.

 Do you think the sexual assault you experienced had  something to do with your depression?

 I suffer from depression since I was very young and the sexual assault I experienced at the age of 19 was certainly a trauma. But my complicated post-traumatic disorder è mainly due to the fact that my illness was ignored for years. During the Born This Way Ball Tour I explained to my management many times that I was sick.